I havent cried for so song.
But in the car, when dad was putting me down on how “fucking dissapointed” he was about me. I think i just snapped in the wrong way.
Instead of swearing back as i usually do i sat their quiet and unassuming.
And i was on the verge of tears, but i didnt cry. I just had that sensation of crying. But i sat there, in silence, driving that car.
Im a failure, a mess, someone who isnt dependable, a lazy little girl who cant stand on her two feet, a waste of his time.
Im not okay with that at all, but i dont know what to say.
I really dont.
It builds up until you can't handle it anymore and burst in the most random situation. Then and only then will people care.
ReplyDeleteWell, that's how it works for me.