Right now, sitting in the darkness tapping away lightly on the laptop and thinking quietly to myself. I found a use for my solar powered lamp, leaving it on my window sill and leaving it there until i use it to read by the bed at night.
Or typing around my thoughts.
Most of my thinking is influenced my the music or the things i see. Life that happens around me. What i want to say is. Im still wondering how far have i come from. Everytime i feel like i come a long way, i will turn and look back and only realised i have only taken a step to change.
It’s as it no matter how much i try to run i seem to be in the same spot.
Do you ever feel like that?
Sometimes all that progress can mean nothing the next day. And that pisses me off. Its ironic that its one way to run away from your past and not even take a step, and its one thing to have progress, and have the exact problem.
Its the fact that im not moving.
All this talk of being a better person, preparing myself to be someone who deserves a girlfriend, is just hot air.I feel put off seeing jerks scoring chicks, or having the majority of friends already in a relationship.
Maybe that’s it.
A majority of my friends are all in relationships. And i’m just having an inferioty complex. In fact, its almost a bipolar reaction. Its only out of nowhere i will begin to build resentment to people i know. And when i begin to find other things to occupy myself with, i still feel put down.
And its nice i guess, to have people around me understanding that. And even though i BITCH and MOAN they’re all like “It gets better Gary,”
If i had that amount of enthusiasm id be spending it all on asking girls out.
In fact, it seems to be the assumption that asking a random person out isn’t viable for a long term relationship.
Tell me, what kind of situation supports a long term relationship?
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