incapacity.

 

Its been a long few months since ive sat down and wrote another blog post on a train. And to be honest

i dont feel

any nostalgia or goodwill to the experience.

Cause since after a year i feel

like

ive become accustomed to waiting everywhere.

Waiting at a trainstop, waiting for my classes, waiting for my day to end and  especially waiting for my conciousness to kick in at 6:00 am in the morning  so

i can

make it into my math  classes.

I really have no clue how i to

deal with this

and it feels like that im wasting so much precious time just to get nowhere.

Aimless.

Sooner or later though, ill work out what i want to do during these waiting times. Maybe ill finally use that notebook to write that story i keep putting aside, maybe ill try and draw for fun, maybe ill start taking my music

seriously.

In any case, i just dont know which to prioritse, and i fear i may end up sitting like this forever, twiddling my thumbs.